I duno how to be… its a really long story and I’m not going to type it out but I had to write something so I could get this out of my head and away from me. I’m not cocky or fun or a challenge or any of that jazz and I wish I was… maybe then the person I love would love me. He doesnt love me… we broke up a month and a half ago, and he just met my best friend today, who I know he’s going to love because she is cocky and fun and a challenge and insane and I love her, and she’ll challenge his mind which is what he wants and needs… she’ll never date him or anything like that caz it would hurt me. Alot. I always told myself and everyone else that I wouldnt care if a friend dated one of my exes; I’ve never cared before.. but with this one I do… it kills me just to think about… I feel incredibly pathetic that I cant get over him, I’ve become another stupid pathetic ex girlfriend who pines over her guy who isnt her guy… I really duno what to do. I wish I could stop liking him so much and that he’d stop playing with my head and tell me the truth about everything. I am pathetic. Really hardcore pathetic. … kinda like… No wonder he doesnt want to be with me, at this point I dont want to be with me either.
Meh.
